nothing to do

[khatru]

I feel like I should be doing something. I was playing wow to take care of the 'need busy', but I can't focus. I looked up online downloadable forms for various legal things, like wills (no, he hasn't made one yet. I haven't either. This is all a piece of various handwaving) and durable power of attorney, which he says we have one of. I don't recall it, and asked him to dig it up to show me. R, who is our default cook, asked me to look up veggie dishes on the web, cause of content fatigue. Well, i'm tired of it too, but we've got a major disconnect, cause I'm, by far, the most interested in meat, what with trying to be low carb. Otter less so than I, and R least of all. As long as C has American Cheese, the world is good. Finding recipes on the web is a lesson in frustration, tho, because it feels like all of them have hot spice of some sort - peppers, cayenne - often hidden down in the ingredients list, and the other half have black pepper in them. The former upsets my stomach, the latter gives me migraines. Otter won't eat the former at all. I put 'low carb vegetable dishes' into the search bar and got piles of stuff going through a bottleneck called yummly, with tracking shit all over it. To the point that, when I clicked the 'read the directions', which took me to someone else's blog, and I copied the link to put into chat, and I removed the referrer crap off the end, when I hit return, the referrer crap was put back on. Fucking hangouts.

i'm not going to bother to pretty this up. yay stream of consciousness.

I can't concentrate on fucking solitaire. or sudoku. I tried leaning back in my chair to zone out for a bit, and I'm twitching. It's like I had too much coffee, but I haven't had *any* for over 24 hours.

I guess I'll look up hospice things. That's the only thing I've thought of to do extra.

Comments

[vvalkyri]

<3

Ugh, that all sounds incredibly frustrating.

Ken Stone is on the FB group, and has been doing Low Carb High Fat Adequate Protein Vegetarian for a while. I'll point him to this post, in the hopes of being able to help remove one of the zillion stressors.

[vvalkyri]

I had a long conversation with Ken. What's your email address? That might be easier than trying to transcribe. He had some cancer related stuff too.

[khatru]

He contacted me on fb, and gave me some links. I haven't had the mental energy to pursue them, but I'm doing my damnedest to remember they are there, and poke them.

The main problem is that any food stuff is hitting the wall of chemo nausea, chemo changing taste proportion and mouthfeel, wanting comfort food which usually ends up being toast, and, not least, refusal to deal. After we get through this latest round of 'what are we doing about this shit' I'll likely try again.

[vvalkyri]

Glad to hear you've been in touch. Re food he mentioned 'keto vegetarian' as a search string. You've probably already got a lot of experience dealing with the game of 'what is edible during chemo,' but if not, I may have someone else to ping on strategies.

It all is of course no fun at all, and I send support.

[khatru]

Most of the strategies we've heard of involve foodstuffs that Otter isn't interested in eating, e.g. making things taste stronger, or hotter, or spicier. He argues with R and I over how much garlic is in things, for example. Also, trying to get the person who doesn't like to make decisions, to make decisions over what to eat, when nothing parses as edible, nor is there any actual interest in food even when there's no active nausea........

Oy.

[vvalkyri]

ugh :(